Great gain…..!

I like to think I know a little about loss. In 2010 I lost everything in a period of 6 months. Yes, 90% was my responsibility. I am stubborn and the advice people gave me prior to 2010 I remembered but did not act upon the advice. So I lost family, job and stuff in a 6 month period. When I noticed what was happening I tried tightening up my life but once it started it didnt stop. I became homeless and homeless with unresolved heartache. I would not want anyone to experience this loss. It was the most difficult experience ever and still is while I write this still homeless.

Now to answer the question, I had to learn how to be content, not only with losing it all, also living with nothing as well. It was the most difficult thing to learn in my life. To be content with nothing is great gain. It is liberating, it is a form of freedom not just from the things I had, which was significant, from marriage as well. I was a slave to the stuff. To maintain 1 house and toys also being married is expensive. To keep up paying to keep the stuff is where I was  slave to the stuff.

At first it really sucked being homeless. Add losing it all and the hardest was wife and kids. She and my daughters are ok, she just wanted someone else. I had to deal with the conflict of being replaced and someone else enjoying what I worked hard for. This was difficult. The life changer was my little daughters. The heartbreak I endured concerning my girls, well words can never explain this. It was the hardest part of the experience. I had to kinda kill feelings in order to fuction day to day. This is the best way I can explain it.

I think a person has to learn to be content with nothing. I believe some people can not or will not learn to do this and they choose suicide instead. People who put money as there security and life are trusting in that money. My sister is like this and makes alot. She is afraid of losing it cause it is everything to her. She attempted suicide  not long ago. She could not learn to be content with nothing. I have learned to be content with nothing and now I am as free as I can be homeless. I choose to be homeless. I would not change what I went through since it cost me so much. Since what I know now from this crisis is so valuable to me. Learn to be happy with nothing.