Affair……what?

There are seriously challenging moments when married some encounter. These can be lies or laziness even wondering who this person is I married. The most damaging and down and dirty one is seeing another on the side, affairs. The damage this causes is immeasurable, and if you got kids, the damage passes to them as well. It becomes a cycle, and to get off the cycle is key. A merry go round that is anything but merry.

It is a strong person who can stay with someone who has strayed. The range of emotion and the betrayal is unbearable at times. If you blame yourself for whatever reason, then it becomes something else.

What if you knew the person or persons who violated your marriage? I did, and the action I didn’t take and wish I did? I wish I would have taken a bat to them. I wish I could have unloaded on them. All the times she never came home. The times I had to be at work and she was not home. I had 2 little daughters, and I could not leave them by themselves. The humility of explaining to my boss why I would be late for work. Having to carry that anger and sadness to work day after day.

Call me a fool but I stood by her through this. For my kids I dealt with it. When it was all said and done, I lose. I got kicked to the curb. It was like watching a really bad movie and not being able to leave. It is what it is, I am permanently relationship scarred and will be alone the rest of my life cause I trust no one . If I ever do it will not be in a marriage contract. That’s my take on this question.